Why do all the bad things always come at once?

I’m one step away from getting a flight back to a Buddhist temple and telling society to go flush itself.

First, let me express that I write on Medium to improve my writing skills and put my mind at ease, I could do it in a diary or notebook like a normal human but I’m quite bad at focusing on a task out of a computer.

With that said, let me express that I feel alone when this happens, even though I know any of my friends would be happy to do a facetime and cheer me up, I feel alone and like a heavy weight for putting this on my friends. Like me, thousands of people feel alone when things start getting dark and all of them happen at the same time.

I try to remember all the lessons and meditations I learned, I might even drop some tears listening to some great songs due to the stress of what will happen to me… I try to put together strategies and tons of post-it notes like a crime scene panel to find possible solutions but… it still sucks that even looking at the positive, s**t happens.

If you feel this way sometimes, let me tell you, you are not alone. We all lose our will at a moment of mental chaos, we all feel horrible when we know we have people and friends who would be next to us but still, they won’t really…